i’ve been using drugs and boys to make me feel something other than numb

i hooked up with two boys in a row last weekend

and after the second one, at 3 am, i cried and i cut my arm

and even after all that,

I still feel numb

― i’m not okay (via wanderlust-d)


I hate the fact that at the moment I’m not sad. I’m not happy either. I’m just kinda numb. Nothing really registers. I don’t know anymore.